Lady Ravasha Witchhawk

Scarlet Thoughts and Necessary Works

The truth is that I have been a woman of the night in my past. I've used dates to earn monies to survive. Always to survive another lonely night or homeless night--Not just to "gold dig" or "steal from innocents." In fact none of the men--mostly men as women were afraid of what I might do to them--I dated ever cared about me, or helping me survive. Just filling their own pockets or slaking their own thirsts for lovemaking. And I've made love on top, on bottom and even... in shameful positions I hate. Even being forced to say things about my partners and myself that I despise, or dress in a slinky dress I hate or wear makeups that bother my skin. Just to please my clients.

Have I had female clients too? Why yes. One of them... an orc who was homeless when I lived in the Horde... told me I was her girlfriend only in private. She would also: Mark her territory so to speak by... kissing and touching her boyfriends and girlfriends around me. It was so confusing. Then she would talk about their abuses of her, yet I could never say words one or two and why? I just... wanted to help her survive too. Just like Falthrien Academy spent my teenage years teaching me. And she didn't want my help. Just my home for a place to stay and my pretty pretty face to listen to her concerns and never speak back. I wanted to help her not just ogle her life so I cut her loose and never saw her again.

My life is filled with things I wish I could change yet can't because of my... scarlet woman of the night activities? Rarely did I ever have actual sex by the way. My clients wanna have me flirting more, or date them all night and all day, or play dominance and submission games with them or... chat about their abusive lives? I'm more of an unwilling therapist than a true sex worker I suppose? In any case: Being a scarlet woman of the night has altered me and how I look at relationships drastically. It cannot be changed without years of retraining everything about myself. How does a girl go about doing all those works when she only has so much time to live?